Day 8 of write it down

1,496 to 1,713 calories per day: 

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning snack: 100
edamame

Lunch: 340
3 mini pitas 60

2tbsp hummus 60

light cheese stick 60hard boiled egg: 60

red pepper

apple slices

70% dark chocolate bar 100 

Afternoon Snack 180
Luna Bar 180
tiny mandarin orange
Dinner 476
Garlic Shrimp 1.5 servings 316 

1/2 cup brown rice 100

sherbet cup 60 

1,399 TOTAL

Second Weigh in

I lost 1.8 pounds

I am now back to what I was at my last weigh in on November 1st before I fell off the wagon for the holidays. I am happy it is a loss but truth be told I was hoping it was more. I know I shouldn't look at it that way but it's just the truth. I was more militant and diligent this week thank I have been about losing weight in years.

Weigh In Day

I lost 1.8

I am now back to where I was on November 1st before I fell off the wagon for the holidays. It's a loss and I'll take it but I'll be honest I was hoping for more. It felt like the longest week of my life. I felt very disciplined and deprived. But, my monthly bill arrived yesterday which probably screwed me up a little bit. I feel huge and bloated. I also didn't exercise because Jane was sick all week and I didn't take her to the Y.

I am going to stick to documenting my daily plans and see if I can get to a new low next week. New low meaning a number I haven't seen in at least a year.

I do feel better and am not as hungry as I was the first few days. Slow and steady right?

Here's what a 185.2 pound tubster with her Aunt Flo looks like in Biggest Loser attire:

The waist size is staggering!!!

HANDSOME

Plan for today: 

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning snack: 180
Kind Bar 180 calories

Lunch: 470
Trader Joe's Kale and edamame salad: 410
hard boiled egg: 60


Afternoon Snack 180
Luna Bar 180

Dinner 
Breaded eggplant with arugula and parm - need to calculate calories after I review recipe
sherbet cup 60 calories


Have a good week Tubsters!

Calorie counting day 7

Big weigh in tomorrow so i want to be really low on my calorie range today. 

Stay between 1,496 to 1,713 calories per day: 

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning snack: 200
Trader Joe's Trail Mix packet: 200 calories

Lunch: 430
Trader Joe's greek salad: 250
hard boiled egg: 60
Luna Bar 180

Afternoon Snack 180
Mango greek yogurt 120
cheese stick 60

Dinner 360
Baked Haddock with Spinach and Tomatoes 200
sherbet cup 60 calories
1/2 cup brown rice 100 calories

1,473 calories

Calorie Counting Day 6

I went out to eat with neighborhood ladies and did ok. I shouldn't have had any bread or fried calamari but it was so delicious. I ordered a "small plate" of salmon for my entree which was a good choice and the wine tasted so good! Only drink I had all week. I still managed to stay within my total calories for the day even with this dinner splurge. 

Stay between 1,496 to 1,713 calories per day: 

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning snack: 45 calories
Half small Banana 45 calories

Lunch: 365 calories
Small bowl chicken noodle soup 140 calories
small piece of baguette 45 calories 
Luna Bar 180 calories

Snack 100 calories
100 calorie chocolate bar Trader Joe's 

celery sticks

Dinner 720!!!!!!!!!
salmon at Square Cafe 280
fried calamari 240
one glass red wine 160 calories
small piece of bread 40 
NO DESSERT

1,533 TOTAL 

Calorie Counting Day 5

SATURDAY

Stay between 1,496 to 1,713 calories per day: 

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning Snack: 200 calories
Kind Bar (went for more calories because I knew I couldn't eat lunch until 2pm due to hair appt) 

Lunch: 470 calories
egg sandwich: 310 calories
english muffin 120 calories
egg 60 calories
cheese 50 calories
1 sausage 80 calories
wasa crackers and cottage cheese 160 calories

No afternoon snack

Dinner 350 calories
chicken noodle soup 200 calories
small chunk of baguette 50
100 calorie dessert

Homeland Snack: 120 calories
120 Trader Joe's calorie trail mix packet

1,443

Calorie Counting Day 4

Project Slim Plan for Friday

Stay between 1,496 to 1,713 calories per day: 

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning snack Calories: 170 calories

Trader Joe's Strawberry Greek Yogurt 120 calories
1 small apple 50 calories

Lunch 425 calories:

Egg white omelet with english muffin:
15 TBSP egg whites 125 calories
1/4 cup light cheese 80 calories
ass load of veggies not counting calories for veggies 
1 100% whole wheat english muffin 120 calories

Trader Joe's dark 70% chocolate bar 100 calories

Afternoon Snack: 300 calories

Luna Bar 180 calories
21 soy crisps 120 calories

Dinner:  455 calories

Individual Trader Joe's pepperoni pizza 290 calories

mixed green salad with 1 tbsp Ken's Honey Balsamic dressing 45 calories

120 calorie dessert bar

TOTAL: 1,653 calories

Stick that in your ill fitting brazier.

Calorie Counting Day 3

Plan for shrinking myself today:

Stay between 1,496 to 1,713 calories per day:

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64

Morning snack Calories: 120 calories
Trader Joe's Blueberry Greek Yogurt 120 calories

Lunch 500 calories:
Trader Joe's Super Spinach Salad with quinoa, carrots, cranberries, chickpeas, edamame, pumpkin seeds and carrot ginger miso dressing 400 calories
Trader Joe's dark 70% chocolate bar 100 calories

Afternoon Snack: 180 calories
Luna Bar 180 calories

Dinner:  570 calories

Thai Coconut Curry Shrimp 

2 servings = 270 calories

1 cup Trader Joe's Thai Jasmine Rice = 180 calories

120 calorie dessert bar

TOTAL: 1,673 calories

Stick that in your tight pants.

Counting calories

Greetings Fattys!

No weigh in until next Tuesday but I stuck to my exact eating plan yesterday and I counted calories and wrote it down and shared it so I am doing that again today. Why is it that after one day I feel I deserve a medal?

I have had success following weight watchers in the past but the meeting times don't work with my kid and YMCA schedule and I am trying to avoid spending money to lose weight. So, I am counting calories with an obvious understanding that some calories are better than others. I went to a calorie website http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm that told me the following:

I am going to shoot for the 1,496 to 1,713 range which means yesterday I ate less than "Extreme Fat Loss". I will readjust the calculator at each new weight.

I know this is minutiae but I have to do it. Do not feel compelled to read my mania.

Breakfast 303 Calories:
1 Van's waffle 115
1 tsp butter spread 44
4 tbsp half and half for 2 coffees 80
4 tsp sugar for 2 coffees 64
Basically my two morning coffees every morning will equate to 144 calories. What a V punch.

Morning snack 140 Calories:
Lemon Chobani Greek yogurt

Lunch 510 calories:
Trader Joe's Kale & Edamame Bistro Salad with sweetened dried cranberries, cherry tomatoes, almonds, scallions and 1/2 of the lemon herb dressing provided. 410 calories - you would think it was Big Mac! It's Kale for fu&^%'s sake! But it really is delicious.
Trader Joe's dark 70% chocolate bar 100 calories

Afternoon Snack: 160 calories
1/2 cup low fat chive and onion cottage cheese 90 calories
3 slices Wasa crisp' n light crackerbread 70 calories it's friggen air
season salt

Dinner: 425 calories
Egg white omelet with english muffin
15 TBSP egg whites 125 calories
1/4 cup light cheese 80 calories
ass load of veggies (onion, red pepper, tomato, cilantro, spinach etc)not counting calories for veggies 
1 100% whole wheat english muffin 120 calories
100 calorie dessert bar

If I stick to this plan I will total 1,538 for the day which is fine considering they are almost all nutritious calories.

Here's to another day of misery!

Where's Dr. Phil? It's time to get real.

187 this morning.

I GAINED 1.2 lbs!!!!!!

Jesus. I ate well but in the back of my mind knew that my portions still needed to be trimmed. I also went to a "cooking class" on Thursday where the "teacher" made a delicious meal and I ate every bite. I know I wasn't perfect but a gain? Did not expect that. I even feel better. Granted, the last weigh in was the morning after a 24 hour puke/explosive D battle so I am sure it did not reflect the appropriate weight but this is not a good way to get back on the wagon.

I am not going to get discouraged I am going to trim my portions even more this week. I do not have any social obligations so I shouldn't have any reason to stray off my eating plan. I am going to try and write everything down but I don't know why that always seems like such a battle. To get me started, today I had:

BREAKFAST 266 calories:
1 Van's waffle: 115 calories
1/2 tbsp buttery spread 44 calories
1/2 and 1/2 in coffee 80 calories
sugar in coffee 27 calories

NO MORNING SNACK

LUNCH 500 calories:
1 Trader Joe's Roasted Butternut Squash, Red quinoa and Wheatberry Salad with baby arugula, cranberries, toasted almonds and a honey sesame vinaigrette. I did not eat the goat cheese and I ate 1/2 the dressing so I am going to say it was 400 calories. Not worth it. Won't get that one again
1 Trader Joe's 70% Dark Chocolate 100 calorie bar. WORTH IT

For the rest of the day I plan to have:

AFTERNOON SNACK: Hard boiled egg. 60 calories. Whoop de doo ( I also had a small handful of almonds with said egg)

Dinner: 
413 calories
 Slow Cooker Black Bean Tacos 313 calories
Trade Joe's mini cheesecake ice cream wedge 100 calories

That would mean I ate 1,239 calories which will be just about right.

IT IS SO HARD NOT TO EAT.

Maybe this will help. Today's biggest loser pics:

That's what we call a HANDSOME WOMAN.

The side one kills me. It is the most ridiculous shape ever. What a blob!! I may try to do an entry every afternoon while Jane is napping to keep me on track with counting calories.

THIS SUCKS!!!! Food is delicious but I really do want to see 155 so I will keep starving myself and not get discouraged. I really hope I have good news to share next week.

Later Tubsters!

New year, old weight

Ok so it's been a month and a half since my last entry and I totally fell off the wagon for the holidays. I am a walking cliche what can I tell you.

I weighed in this morning at 185.8 which is +.06 from November 1st. I should be disgusted by this but honestly I am shocked that I didn't put 10 pounds on over the holidays. I ate like a hog. Now for full disclosure, the thing that gave me the nerve to weigh in this morning is the fact that I puked and had explosive D for the prior 24 hours so I figured the scale would be generous. I admit this is twisted.

I guess this means that my ideal weight for eating what I want with minimal exercise is 185ish and a size 14. Too bad it makes me look like an apple and feel like a whale.

So I am back at it. Next weigh in will be next tuesday 1/22.

Orthopedist at MGH basically told me that weight loss could really help my knees. I also need to stop snoring and I know it will help that. I still want to lose 30 lbs by my 40th bday on September 13, 2013. That's 34 weeks. That's less than a pound a week. I can't work out as hard as I would like to it's all about the food and eating A LOT less. I have a one month challenge for myself to do weekly meal planning in order to keep grocery shopping, bills, and family dinner on track. Here is what this week looks like:

MONDAY

APRICOT GLAZED CHICKEN WITH RICE AND BROCCOLI - didn't happen because of the puking

TUESDAY

CROCK POT CHICKEN TACOS CHILI - in crock pot as we speak

WEDNESDAY

MARTHA STEWART ONE POT PASTA 

THURSDAY

TURKEY TACOS

FRIDAY

PIZZA AND SALAD

SATURDAY

CROCK POT MINESTRONE SOUP

SUNDAY

GRILLED CHICKEN WITH SPINACH AND MELTED MOZZARELLA

Just a reminder of what 185.8 lbs of pure tubby goo looks like on me:

Hopefully that just made you lose your appetite!!!

Happy starvation!