When not pregnant, I have never been bigger than a size 14/16. I have never worn an 18 or higher. I have never shopped plus size. However, I don't like the way that I look or feel in a size 14 or 16. In pictures, I have a hideous turkey neck (and for an animated person like me a turkey neck is VERY unattractive) an enormous stomach (nicknamed the ruby ridge) and thighs that rub together so badly they could start a fire. Once I am a steady size 12 I usually feel much better and look ok, but my personal sweet spot is a size 10 which is about 155 pounds. I am 5' 7" and 155 sure sounds like a lot but that is what I weighed for my wedding and honeymoon and I feel like I looked ok and was able to buy cute clothes and feel comfortable. That is the maximum weight for my height on the BMI scale but that is my goal. If I could get myself to stay 155 and below the rest of my life I would be a happy woman.
Here's my goal: I want to be a 155 pound MILF by the time I turn 40 on September 13, 2013.
I was at my current weight for a while before I got married and then I lost about 30 lbs before my wedding in a family weight loss competition called the "pre-nup pump up". I know how to do all this I just need to do it.
I am not eating too much because I had a bad childhood or because I have low self esteem, I am just a glutton. I love food. In the words of Frank the Tank "It tastes so god when it hits your lips". In fact, I have a pretty healthy diet. The things I eat are high quality and "super foods" etc, but I eat way too much of them. I know my metabolism and I have to watch every morsel that goes into my mouth if I want to lose weight.
I have always worked out either through sports on group exercise classes or running. I like to work out, I am usually quite fit even when tubby. "Wow Shamoo can run like the wind!" Working out is not my problem except now I have a knee injury.
I lost 12 lbs earlier this year and then injured my knee, got depressed about the injury and lost momentum and put the weight back on and it sucks. I am now in physical therapy for my knee which gives me hope of getting back into my workouts. Until my knee is back, I have to eat even less because I can't burn as many calories as I would like. Such is life.
I would much rather run eight miles a day and eat what I want than count every calorie... but I am not running 8 miles a day... I can't even run period.
So here goes, I am going to expose myself like the Biggest Loser. I have NEVER done this before. Here are some pics of me today at 187.8 lbs. You might want to wear sunglasses. This is really dicey:
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