First Weigh In

-.6

I starved myself for 9 days for a mere half a pound. 

I weigh 187.2.

So disappointed. I know I am not supposed to be and that I should be happy it went down no matter how much. However, usually the first week of drastically changing your diet, you get big bang for your buck from shaking up your system. Perhaps I will see a better number next week so I won't lose my mind too much. 

It is not de-motivating me. I am going to keep going. 

I also need to get used to the fact that my exercise is minimal due to knee so this will be slower than I like.

So I looked up a photo of what a half a pound of fat looks like to make me feel better:

I promised myself I would do biggest loser pics every weigh in to keep myself honest so here we go again, I wonder where the .6 came from? :) 

From the looks of things, the .6 definitely did not come from stomach. YIKES! This might get mistaken for a pregnancy Blog if I don't drop some lbs fast!

Muffin Top Monday

Today is one week that I have changed my eating but I didn't weigh myself until last Wednesday (I wasn't quite mentally prepared to face my numbers on Monday) so my first weigh in on Wednesday will reflect 9 days of starvation instead of the 7 I plan on every week going forward. I do NOT like to weigh myself in between weigh ins. It is psychological torture.

I have not written down everything I eat and I have not religiously measured things. I know I will need to start doing those things but I am easing into the process. I do, however, feel like I have made major restrictions and drastic changes to the amount I eat primarily when it comes to snacking which I usually do like a machine (that and eating kid leftovers). Right now I am relying on common sense and being honest with myself. Blogging helps me stay honest.

I have done minimal exercise due to knee problem. Went to PT two times last week. Taken a few walks and done Pt exercises but that's it. Nothing close to what I would like to do.

Today's breakfast:
1 Van's wheat and gluten free waffle 115 calories
1/2 tbsp earth balance "buttery spread" 50 calories
1 cup coffee with a bit of half and half and 2 sugar in raw packets (trying not to eat Splenda which sucks because Splenda and I are quite fond of one another and it is calorie free)

I know there a million better choices for me to eat for breakfast but I have an unusual adult love for toaster waffles. I could eat a whole box in one day and usually would eat two for breakfast so for now I am cutting my old habit in half before I force myself to eat a better choice like yogurt or an egg or steel cut oatmeal etc..

Morning snack:
1/2 banana

Lunch:
Gigantic salad with:
baby spinach
pepper
tomato
carrot
celery
red onion
1/2 avocado
1/2 hard boiled egg
1 small breaded chicken chunk (less chicken than my one year old could eat)
tiny amount of feta
tablespoon pine nuts
2 tbsp (this I did measure) Ken's Honey Balsamic dressing SO DELICIOUS 90 calories

There are probably a lot of calories in this salad and I don't feel like calculating it but they are all quality calories so I don't feel bad and it will fill me. It takes a bit of effort to prepare a salad for lunch so Monday is a good day for me to do that because my 4 year old is in school until 1pm. This salad is friggen delicious. I wish I could eat a half a loaf of bread with it but it's still yum.


I probably should not have anything else for lunch but I may top it all off with a caramel nut brownie Luna Bar for "dessert".

I'll have a greek yogurt for an afternoon snack around 3pm and I think dinner will be an egg white omelet.

Probably seems like a lot of food but remember I am Large Marge. The more weight I lose the less I will be able to eat. We'll see on Wednesday if I have been restricting enough. Maybe that will force to start writing it all down which is so tedious and I feel like I can never be consistent about it.

Also, I had my sister take my measurements yesterday. We insulted each other throughout the process. I think every 10 or 15 lbs I will re-take them to see progress. For now, here are the sobering, staggering stats:

Bust: 37 3/4" (measured along bottom of bra so does not include over the top of the cans.
Waist: 41 1/2" Sweet Jesus. I feel like I have the girth of Alfred Hitchcock. This is bigger than my husbands waist!
Thighs: 22 3/4" ACDC was not writing abut me in "Shook me All Night Long"
Arm: 12 1/2 " Meathooks
Hips 42"LOL! My waist is only slighty smaller than my hips. Take that Sir Mix a Lot.
Neck: 14 3/4" Thank God for hereditary turkey necks on both sides

It's all out there now. The lbs, the inches and the cold hard truth staring me in the face in those biggest loser photos. It can only get better from here!

Smell ya later dicks I have to go change a deuce.

Maximum Density

I am at that weight that I get to where I know I have to reign it in or I will tip two hundy and the only time I have ever tipped two hundy was with my two pregnancies and that was just barely tipping the two hundy mark with enormous babies. Therefore, tipping that mark without being pregnant is, well, disgusting. For some reason, I have allowed myself to get to 187.8 pounds but two hundy is just unacceptable. In the words of Chris Rock, I have to stop being such a "low expectation havin' muthaf&^%^!"

When not pregnant, I have never been bigger than a size 14/16. I have never worn an 18 or higher. I have never shopped plus size. However, I don't like the way that I look or feel in a size 14 or 16. In pictures, I have a hideous turkey neck (and for an animated person like me a turkey neck is VERY unattractive) an enormous stomach (nicknamed the ruby ridge) and thighs that rub together so badly they could start a fire. Once I am a steady size 12 I usually feel much better and look ok, but my personal sweet spot is a size 10 which is about 155 pounds. I am 5' 7" and 155 sure sounds like a lot but that is what I weighed for my wedding and honeymoon and I feel like I looked ok and was able to buy cute clothes and feel comfortable. That is the maximum weight for my height on the BMI scale but that is my goal. If I could get myself to stay 155 and below the rest of my life I would be a happy woman.

Here's my goal: I want to be a 155 pound MILF by the time I turn 40 on September 13, 2013.

I was at my current weight for a while before I got married and then I lost about 30 lbs before my wedding in a family weight loss competition called the "pre-nup pump up". I know how to do all this I just need to do it.

I am not eating too much because I had a bad childhood or because I have low self esteem, I am just a glutton. I love food. In the words of Frank the Tank "It tastes so god when it hits your lips". In fact, I have a pretty healthy diet. The things I eat are high quality and "super foods" etc, but I eat way too much of them. I know my metabolism and I have to watch every morsel that goes into my mouth if I want to lose weight.

I have always worked out either through sports on group exercise classes or running. I like to work out, I am usually quite fit even when tubby. "Wow Shamoo can run like the wind!" Working out is not my problem except now I have a knee injury.

I lost 12 lbs earlier this year and then injured my knee, got depressed about the injury and lost momentum and put the weight back on and it sucks. I am now in physical therapy for my knee which gives me hope of getting back into my workouts. Until my knee is back, I have to eat even less because I can't burn as many calories as I would like. Such is life.

I would much rather run eight miles a day and eat what I want than count every calorie... but I am not running 8 miles a day... I can't even run period.

So here goes, I am going to expose myself like the Biggest Loser. I have NEVER done this before. Here are some pics of me today at 187.8 lbs. You might want to wear sunglasses. This is really dicey:

Jealous aren't you. Yes, I am a raging apple. The first 2 pics do a nice job of illustrating the turkey neck as well. Feminine is not what comes to mind when I see these pics but certainly not MILF. Here's hoping I change all that!